I learned a lot from 2020

I definitely learned a lot more in 2020 than I ever did . This was the first time I’ve ever lived through a pandemic . I never thought I would be part of this pandemic at all. The people who you thought we’re gonna be in your life aren’t meant to be in your life and their true colors have shown this year during the darkest times . I could Not say goodbye to anybody that I knew have passed away from Covid and also other health complications . My dating life went down the toilet with somebody who I was seeing for a while who didn’t treat me great at all because I was lead on for nothing but was left for someone else 🤷🏼‍♀️. Hopefully I find someone someday Find the right grateful one for me and Who isn’t going to treat me like garbage ahhh well back to the drawing board so I’ll have to do online dating again since I can’t really physically meet anybody . For now I have a lot of healing to do before I start online dating again . During the pandemic I wasn’t doing so right mentally because of the major changes. My careers had to be put on hold because of Covid regulations but also had to do things virtually only a few were virtually but the rest of them where not. I haven’t really felt creative. My depression and anxiety really hit me very bad . I’ve had so much on my brain since March .my social life had to change as well because of Covid . I really had to do some soul-searching when it comes to self-care self-help to help my self to heal .Right now I have to find new coping mechanisms because right now I can’t do the things the way I used to when it came to tough times but during Covid I can’t be wild to cope with my issues because of this virus . There are things that I don’t miss attending thankfully and there’s people who I don’t miss anymore . I don’t like this whole new normal with this pandemic at all . I did lose myself this year .I need me again and I need to find me again .I come first now this time for me to heal and care for me now. I am taking care of me now